The cravings come and go in waves like everything else. But mostly I don't have them at all anymore which surprises me.
When I walk down the aisle at the grocery store I notice it smells incredibly sweet. I look over and see I am standing near the marshmallows. Have I ever been able to smell marshmallows? The same thing happens when I open my cupboard door, a cupboard where there is still sugar inside. I can smell it.
The local organic carrots taste incredibly sweet. So do apples. Once, eating french fries with some friends, I got a blob of ketchup on one of mine and, well, you know what I'm going to say: it was hideously sweet. These things do not surprise me, but they are interesting.
What would I notice if I stopped drinking coffee? Is that what I'm doing here, trying to prime myself for quitting my deepest addiction? I'm very afraid of even thinking about it, which means, of course, that it's exactly what I have to do.
But not yet.
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