Once, when she was going through a tough time emotionally, Cyn used the line, "Objects in this blog are not as sad as they appear", and went on to explain (sorry I'm too lazy to go find and link directly to her post) that sometimes you put all of your sadness into your blog, and that, in your everyday life, you are fine. I sort of feel that way now. That's part of what you have the blog for, to put things that you may not have any other place for, as a repository for certain emotions. The blog, although it does reflect me, isn't me. And ya gotta keep in mind, sometimes life is all about perspective. As my mother said to me this weekend, "Oh, to be 41 again..."